It is week five all ready. Yes I am doing good habits but somehow I still find myself fighting with the bad habits that want so badly to be heard. It is a constant struggle for be. The seven laws of the mind. Started reading those and I really need to work on the Law of Forgiveness. Bad taste in my mouth over sisterly love… The Lord has been helping me through this and will continue as things evolve.
I Really love Scroll I. It really makes me think about my life and how I need to change the direction of where I am going to have the new life. Exciting the direction I am going.
I am scared right now. My DMP still on drafts yet and now I need to blog my Press Release. If I am having problems with my DMP how am I going to do a beautiful press release, while still doing my daily duties. That fear really bothers me at this time.
I am excited to continue, always eager to see what next week is going to bring.
Going on week four, things are heating up, My DMP, on draft four. Feel like it is going good, now have to many words so need to shorten it down some. I finally get in the swing of it and now it’s to wording. It’s fun. Can’t wait until it’s done so my subby can absorb the real DMP. LOL
My mind is going in all directions, not sure if I took on more then I can handle or not. I have noticed my switches are back full swing, and it’s the left arm and hand, and I am left handed which isn’t good. I am finding typing on the computer is harder then usual with more typing errors, so need to go back and make corrections. Take more time then I want but need to do it. Is this good or bad. Yes, they are bad habits one could say but under my health issues, I am not sure how bad it is. My brain is on over load. I guess having two strokes and three aneurysms on the brain, causing TBI from an auto accident doesn’t help. oh well! Life goes on, one day at a time. I continue to read Og three times a day. I need to read all three times out load so I understand what I read so that is what I do. and all the other readings again out loud and doing everything I am suppose to do. Some days are better then others. Hoping the switches will slow down some or back to the doctor again.
I must say I have had chronic fatigue since I was 14 years old, fifty some years and last year found a doctor that does hormone therapy. We have been working together, still increasing hormone but starting to have energy longer then four hours a day. All I can say is I like the new me without the switches and a Big thank you to Lori for sending me the invite and MKMMA and group helping me discover my true being.
Till next time
Forming good habits are fun, I think. ! have found changing the bad to make good are much harder then I thought. However, this is a perfect time for my cleaning lady to come in and clean. Now I am picking things up and putting things back verses not picking up. Forming more good habits, and I believe Og’s reading is helping me with this, but then I go into my office where yes, I have a cleaned off desk top, the office has so many piles and cluttered so much. One good thing is I come down here to do my reading during the day and find myself taking a pile and putting it away, or throwing away which ever it is.
To night for dinner, the boys and I sat down and ate, and was able to sit and relax after the meal. We left the table one hour after sitting down. It was so nice just sitting, catching up with things and relaxing from a long day.
This weeks readings are really hard for me to absorb, All the solar plexus and such, but I continue reading them some times more then once a day. they should become easier.
My coaches are great. They are a husband and wife team. They are giving me good idea’s for my DMP, but I am still having problems with words and exactly what I want. I have struggled in the past on writing goals statements and now it still isn’t coming any easier. I will continue and not give up.
The first week is behind me. Not sure if it is good or bad. I like the good habits that I have started, I also find my bad habits are not agreeing with my good habits. Not fighting them just not agreeing, and find myself falling back into my bad. Not good, but as the weeks go on, it should get better. yea
For those who are following me, I made it through Dad’s surgery. He had a couple more stents inserted. It took 4 hours. I had my sister with me this time so I felt so much better. Will have another surgery in December for more stents.
Back to my week. Practice sitting and doing nothing just to gather my thoughts and not to move, well this body has uncontrolled twitching going on, I could make it to two minutes. Thought this would never do, So now am sitting with the uncontrolled shakes and twitching, and having my thought time. Its fun, taking that time just for me and my thoughts. Having two elder’s is like have two kids, once you are alone for any amount of time, they want to know what you are doing. I now let them know where I am going and telling them I will be back out at a certain time. that I can not be disturbed. I love it, they listen…….. Happy happy happy I am..
I am feeling good about my self. I am not sure where I would be if I had a full time job that I had to go to everyday, guess that is why I am retired, but anyway, as I continue to get healthier and getting more energy this will all come easier, I hope.